I'm just so proud of our boy. We have a walker!! He stood up on Sunday at the Build a bear workshop and took 3 steps towards the door later that day at Maggie's house. Since then he's done 4-8 steps in a row, fairly regularly. He's pretty keen as you'll see, so in the next couple of weeks I think crawling will be almost a thing of the past.

little one is STILL unsettled. Poor chappy. He's sleeping with us :) and waking up even so :( especially before we go to bed.

We're going to try putting his cot and hopefully him in it in the room with our 3yo. I'm 90% confident that he's going to be good and not try anything scary, but it's just the 10% chance. It's too high, isn't it? Hmmm

Forgot to say that the 3yo and I (mostly I as you will guess) made ANZAC biscuits today. He was dead certain he wasn't going to need a sleep and then fell asleep on the couch :). He was in a good mood for hubby while I had a haircut so that was just fine.  

Just re-reading my past entry. I saw N. and that did help, she's increased my breast milk again and bubs is not throwing up, so that's a relief. I've decided that PND is not for me. My friend had it, and I have had a lot of the signs, but I'm working through it bit by bit. When I'm able to remember that I am in control, that letting go of my anger allows me to choose  rather than react, it all goes more smoothly.

I'm trying cuddles when my 3yo has his tantrums, which is new. The advice I've had before is that you leave them to it, don't give attention. I'm finding that doesn't work. He needs to know that I want to understand him, that I care. He calms down and opens up when I give him that. I don't however give into his tantrum driven demands, or change my mind when 'no' results in a tantrum. I'm finding more joy in my boys these days. Funny how the simple things help.  

My 9 mnth old had such a big day today :)

He commando crawled for the first time, he said 'da-di' (which I'm calling daddy, he was looking at hubby when he said it) and I'm so proud.

The trouble is, he's sleeping on me instead of in his cot!! I've fed him twice in 2 hours, he's been sleeping on me and then he's only had a quick nap in his cot. Right now he's been in the cot for a few minutes, but I would be very surprised if he sleeps there tonight. It's been a week or so since that happened. We get so tired that he is in bed with us every night. There's no sign of a tooth, so I'm hoping this isn't going to be for too long.

Thinking about it in terms of co-sleeping, I'm ok with it, but maybe we need a bigger bed!!  

Today was better than most. There's never enough time in the day, but my 3 yo slept and was pretty good most of the time. Got to have lunch with hubby which is always nice. Bub didn't throw up this morning like the last few days, so that was a relief.

Hoping that I'll feel better after seeing N. tomorrow. Decided I might well have pnd, but not really sure about it or what to do about it. Don't want any medical stuff...  

I've got 2 children, 3 yo and 8 1/2 month old and between the two I sometimes feel like I want to explode! The 3yo is so busy pushing boundaries, feels like you are talking to air all the time and you have to constantly talk about consequences and repeat yourself - it's exhausting!

The little one is screaming all the time because he's trying to crawl, can't reach his toys, getting bored of the whole not moving when everyone else is. I've got no time to spend with him really, I feel lke he's very patient but I'm worried he won't learn as much because the 3yo is taking all my focus. I wish I could really enjoy them, but there never seems to be enough time...

Ah well, some catharsis. Note to self, must get some video of bub going to the bath. Every single fibre of his being is just giggling himself stupid.